i know

I know I have been complaining a lot and I am gonna stop that now. Actually for your reading pleasure I am going to post a diary entry that I wrote on the 22 of June. Quiet interesting entry as I don't know what was going in my mind when I wrote this.

"I think it's good to not meet stupid people, I think it's best to not meet any people then to meet stupid people. I found out myself talking about that in my last couple of entries. I have found only few who act while they think. The same guy once told me that exceptional kids (people) are just born by chance. It happens so very few times, a child being raised perfectly with all the exceptional genes to incorporate. It's even more true to think that this person's child might not be asmuch unique as himself. I would like to hear some examples where the child outperforms their overachieving parents. It happens but not at the rate of vulgarity. I mean, that this child might turn out to be better but not great.

I would still talk about Steel, Technology and Chemistry driven Industries being indespensible at the timeo of a recession or even inflation, let alone hyper-inflation. Is technology vulnerable? I think it is. If Microsoft fires all of it's research and development group tomorrow over with an agreement with every computer company in the market that no new products will be discovered to cut costs, how would that effect World? The World will have to go with it. All this would bring an end to every company that uses computers eventually. For scientists that need computer will bring more and more data and would demand higher computation power but couldn't get it for they stopped making progress in that area. Slowly, the scientists would have enormous data but no way to compute it or find a result. Leading to time inflation and which would lead to losses. At a given point in time, the losses would be greater than the profit because of limited resources and when that happens the company itself would collapse. Thus technology is vulnerable for society. However, for a short period of time as in a recession (10 years), technology does not make a great risk because hunger and inflation would be a bigger problem at that time."

If you read this and understand this, then you are smart. If you produce an argument than you are intelligent. If you can produce an hypothesis to it then you are more smart than I am.

Back to Work

So I am back to work, life don't stop. What can I say. Next thing to do is nothing for the next 2 days. Just go to work and eat and sleep. Maybe if I get rejuvenated go to the Rec and work out a little bit. But for now, all I can think is how ****** up this whole week is.

Sore

Tired and sore to my bones. Wish someone would just lift me up to the sky. Moved all stuff to a friend's apartment, but now I feel so much unappreciated. That too from my own blood. Great!

Plus, now I have to fight for my own money. This whole week is gonna be like this and maybe the next week too. I have no home for the next three days and nobody cares, I hope there is justice in the world because so far I don't see any happening here.

Exhausted

Just finished another quiz for the course but cannot make myself do another. Well, I figured that if I do one quiz every day I will be able to finish it just before the deadline. Not a bad idea but have to do atleast one quiz everyday...Physically and Mentally exhausted tonight for I had to move everything out in 2 hours! And after the cleaners did their job, had to rewire some stuff and put my bed back in my room. After all that, I went to work. Now at 1:40 A.M. after done with the quiz, sleep is like a mile away, something that has become normal in my life. In the struggle to not being dependent on Nyquill to go to sleep, I have compromised many hours to just laying down...I hope my hand heals before tomorrow or I would have to skip practice. That if happens, is gonna SUCK.

Hmmm..this blog is sometimes like saying out loud what you are thinking! Kinda Weird now that I thought about it. Oh well, whatya gonna do???

Persona

Personally, I think that literature written by authors who try to explain civilization become mind-numbing after sometime. In my opinion, it closes one's perception to percieve things 'outside the box'. One only thinks about what the author is trying to convey and that being all facts leaves no or little area of exploration. So even if someone is trying to explain to you why teenage drinking is a social issue escalating everyday, it might not entrigue you even though you are a teenager! For they try to show you the facts and not the history or the reasons behind the social problem.

As for environmentalists, there is always something to look upon. There's inspiration in every breadth, in every sight, over every lake, over every hill. Even when you go outside, your neighbour's small garden in their backyard can be inspirational. As much as you relate possessions to memory, you can cherish it for a far longer and yet wonderful period.

Things that are wild in nature can set you off sometimes; for you have no control over them. The key is to not try to force them in a different shape of your understanding, but to accept it as is and adapt it. The thing that can cause you harm, you can do the same for them. But if you both accept existence, their is not much to fight for. I might be getting off track, but the point is; to associate life with the living. To associate pride with struggle. To cherish time with hapiness. To plea smile with a laughter. Then maybe one day, when you have given enough, you will understand what it is to be peaceful.

Forgotten You

Ahem, I found this while cleaning my apartment last night. I don't want it to dissapear again for another year, so I am going it post it here....

Night falls over with the winds
Day shines high leaving it's trace
Dew left, speaks for the time and it's shade
You speak for a life long found, and fade.

This time as the sand drops slowly
You drift away again, slow and without a grace
How to hold this piece of me from falling
How to stop you from being lost again.

Too few words, too much spoken
Too few kisses, too much expectations
Just a face, impression left over the plain
Just when time was healing you came over and made me wonder again.

To the stars and to the rain
To the sky and to my vain
Miss you more tonight and miss you like ever
Wish you could just touch my heart one more time
Wondering to give you a chance and we might be together again.

Tarun Bhatia

Summer Course

So everybody keeps askin me wats goin on these days? Except for the fact that I have to move 2 beds, 3 tables, chairs, sofa, couch, among other furniture in our dining room to make room for the professional cleaners to clean my apartment tomorrow before 3; I don't know what to tell them. Oh, the fact that the online course I took, whose book I just got, has 16 chapters each taking 3 hours and is due in 2 weeks. With that due in near future I have till 6 August to reconstruct many of our old projects in one big project. Test run it and make it viewable in Linux clusters is just another challenge that I have in hands with deadlines. All this and I still have to finish the Need for Speed Underground 2 game.


But mind keeps going back to the beach!

Morning Jitters

Woke up a little late at 10:30 today. Couldn't sleep after that but wondered why I want to sleep just a little more? Work so far is tedious. The rent problem is just being a constant headache. Mr. Chris Martin is hard to catch and is unable to accept his mistakes. Well, the only problem is that none of my roomates are here and like always I have to take all the responsibilities. I would though make sure that next year I am not caught in a situation where I am struggling to keep them. Next year I am just not going to take any....
What is today? Wednesday? "Another day another dollar", is all I could think about when I was getting up. Today, I am going to make sure I don't hurt myself in the workout. Anyways, still haven't seen Batman Begins, which kinda sucks. Wanna check out the Old Chicago Restaurant today, we'll see how that goes. Oh what else, Can't get the stooopid textures to show up on this file. How dumb you gotta be to not do that. Argh, making me mad. I am giving up sugar as a doctor told me and also told me to drink fresh juice rather than pasteurized one, which sucks because I hate to work on the food processor. So that means that I can only drink milk and water. Yeah, wooptie doo. But you gotta do what you gotta do. And I gotta go right now.

More on coach....

Well as it turns out that coach didnt filed a case. Their attorney did (whom didnt even consulted him before filing it). Now as it turns out, coach will have to pay all the medical bills back to the University that were made TILL DATE. So maybe in the end he can lose his job with the university and make no money at all!! I don't know about you, but I think this SUCKS.

He looks like the ROCKY's Coach. Don't he? Well, I am just leaving my laptop to work because I don't feel like carrying it everyday. So, the only time I can post these entries is when I am at work.

Oh well, this summer I went to Florida, Atlanta, Chicago(twice) and Minneapolis. I think that should be counted as enough...For now, I am just hoping for ames to fill back up quick before I lose my mind.

Few minutes

So I have 15 minutes for I can get out of this place but I thought why not write a blog! Yeah, well, for the geeks, I just was given an assignment to revive old outdated demos and make them run again after we upgraded our systems to newer versions of Multigen. Ha, those that are completely lost, I did what I had to, learned a whole lot of new stuff and am on the final step to make it run. I thought that it was amazing on how we can revive old stuff using some help from new technology.

I think I might be late for the boxing practice today but I will still be there no matter what. More often then not, I end up just running the track, doing cardio and going home but is still a great workout.

The coach somehow decided to sue our University for some "injuries" that were caused by broken steps in our gym building. I personally thought that it was sweet, but it might jeopardize his job in the end. I guess 40 years of nowhere can end up in taking drastic measures for anybody. He just got tired of waiting. Oh heck, I gotta go.

Road trip....

Since Jitesh is here from Atlanta...and we both have screwed our legs from playing tennis we are going to six flags! Oh, how we make decisions! Anyways, he has brought his camera so hopefully we would have some crazy pictures...

Weight

Just found out that I lost 5 kilos from 82 to 78 during summer. I dont think anybody that might even ever reads this care, but it feels good and more alive when you know that your doing a good job. Hmmm, guess I won't sleep tonight just to see if I can sleep tomorrow like a normal human being. All I can think about is if I could spar today. Funny how when you do somany things that mean nothing can add up to somuch of your own self. I guess after I am done writing this, I will call somebody I know. I hope they dont mind, it's been a while since I called anybody except dad.

Oh did I mention that the fireworks of the 4 July were awesome. It lasted longer than I imagined and was far better too.....

insomniac

It means you dont get enough sleep. I get enough sleep, just cant sleep in night. Hmm, guess I am not a morning person, literally... I think my mom is gonna flip when she is gonna find out that I want braids for my hair.

" CLEVELAND (AP) - In steel cities across America, massive abandoned mills tell the story: the U.S. industry used to be giant, with dozens of thriving companies in nearly every state. Today, the biggest steelmakers mostly have addresses abroad, and the number of independents is dwindling.

International ties are increasingly entangled: paycheques from European employers are cashed by steelworkers in Cleveland, burgeoning businesses in China are coached by American executives, and Russians are helping to rebuild aging coke ovens in West Virginia. "

I found out this piece of news. Made me think, globalization is going to lead to one thing ultimately. Complete saturation of every industry. So, what happens to those who want to rule, that are small fish in a big pond you ask me? Well, they do their time but leave nothing for the future. Thats just how the story ends.

I dont know why I end up thinking about everything. I know some people that do that, but not many. Maybe I should add a line from the Plato just for the sake of proving this...
"I am eager to get the better of you in an agruement, for the uneducated, when they enagage in arguement about anything, give no thought to the truth about the subject of discussion but are only eager that those present will accept the position they have set forth." Hmmmm...what does he mean, I think you know.:)

You (name of the game)...blues rythm

You wanna, come over while I take a shower
You wanna, wait for as long as I come out of the curtains
You look at me, pass a smile as It's gonna rain in the desert
You eat those popcorns, and I wear jeans that dont fit
You wanna me to spin once then twice, giggle and check my butt out and twitter

You are all fun, till the time we are watchin the game
You put your hands on my chest, ask what I am doing tomorrow
You wanna know if I am seing somebody, that dont reap what you cant sow
You see me being patient and attentive, deep in thoughts about what you wanna know

You keep the space, but let the hands play that game
You wanna know how much popcorn is there in my mouth
You wanna know how much I paid for the sphagetti that I just made
You just keep getting better, with every word you say

You were just a dream, but left some comfort on my stooging personage

Tarun Bhatia